How to Stop Performing Certainty and Actually Connect: One Breath at a Time

I don't know if this is just me, but I can feel the difference in my entire body now when I'm performing certainty instead of actually being curious.

The Go Go Go

Here's what it looks like for me, as a photographer, walking into a session. I don't let anything go quiet. I'm talking, talking, talking, talking, talking, filling the space so I don't have to feel any of the discomfort in the scene. There's this energy of go go go running underneath the whole thing, and I'm not even paying attention to the person standing in front of my camera. I'm so focused on manufacturing a smile, proving I've got everything under control. And then, out of nowhere, I have to catch a breath. Because I realize I haven't actually breathed in about five minutes. That's the moment it hits me. I was operating from a hyper energy instead of a grounded one, trying to control instead of being present.

What Nervous Was Actually Protecting

Early in my career, that go go go was just what confidence looked like to me. Talk over the quiet before the quiet gets to say anything about me.

That's just what nervous looks like: hiding the parts I'm still figuring out, and looking sure even before I feel it.

What Performing Certainty Actually Costs

Here's what that actually cost me. If I'm too busy over-talking, too busy trying to prove myself, I can't hear what my client is bringing into the room. Their ideas, what they have to say, what's really going on with them that day. I'm forcing them to come along to where I'm at. And it's not about me. It is about my client, when I am taking their picture. They're trusting me with something special, choosing me to capture a significant time in their life, document them before change takes the moment away. And when I'm performing certainty instead of being present, I miss so much of what my clients offer me during the session, a very important part of the creative process.

Grounded Enough to Meet Them

What changed wasn't that I got more certain. It's that I got grounded enough to leave space for someone else's energy to actually enter the relationship. Now, before I even pick up the camera, I'm asking. How'd it go today? What was it like getting here? What are we excited about? Do you have any ideas for this session? I ask because their answers matter, because I want them to feel how important they are, before I ever take a single photo.

Clarity was never about walking in already knowing everything. It was about being quiet enough, grounded enough, to meet them where they're at, and invite them into the creative process with me. Letting them see my excitement, my actual thoughts, talking out loud about how I'm navigating the uncertainty of the scene instead of hiding it from them.

I still catch myself in the go go go sometimes. But now I know what it means when I finally take that breath. It means I get to stop performing and actually show up with them.

The Shared Breath

Now I have my clients take that breath with me too, sometimes more than once in a session, and I always take one right along with them. I joke that it's more for me than it is for them. That joke is basically my whole philosophy now. Grounded. Ready to meet you where you're at. Navigating whatever's uncertain right alongside you.

The version of this that actually holds is the one you find before you need it, not after you've already been performing for five minutes.

One Breath at a Time

It doesn't matter if you're standing in front of my camera or sitting across from me in conversation. It is the same breath, doing the same work, grounding us both as we work together.

I love my life.

Core Concepts & Inquiries ‍

Performing certainty and practicing discernment can look identical from the outside, but they're different instincts. Uncertainty is where this starts, the actual state of not yet knowing, before anyone decides what to do about it. Discernment is the harder skill underneath: staying with what's true in a moment instead of reaching for a rehearsed answer. Self-leadership is what it produces, the capacity to meet someone else honestly instead of managing how you appear to them.

Is performing certainty the same as being confident? Confidence can hold a moment of not-knowing without needing to hide it. Performing certainty is what covers over that gap, and it costs the very connection it's trying to protect.

What replaces certainty, if not more certainty? Being grounded. A grounded person can stay present inside an uncertain moment instead of talking over it, which is what actually makes room for someone else to show up too.

Go Deeper

If you recognized yourself in the go-go-go, the Communication Clarity guide inside the Creative ReturnToolkit is where you take the breath before the session, the conversation, the camera.

The noise that fills the quiet before you're ready to be seen: Sort the Noise is the practice for exactly that.

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